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1:50pm: so cut my wrists and black my eyes, so i can fall asleep tonight
jay's living with tanner and i now. =]

i should update more often.

4:47pm: im back. but not for long, going to my grandmothers house with tanner for like two weeks sunday ><'

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10:14pm: oh, the city of light <3.
i'm in paris. X] how cool.
i love this city, i'd love to live here. it's just amazing.
the hotel is a little dumpy, but all and all the first day has left me chuffed.
i'm getting a tattoo tomorrow..hopefully :DD

x3bixx.

10:13pm: i wish i was like you - easily amused..
painting sucks. hard. the pay sucks. hard. it's got to be like below minimum wage. £2.50 an hour? seriously. :quits:
speaking of painting, i finished painting my room. it's black and i did a huge design with white and silver on one wall. my dad didn't like it and gave me a whole lecture on how he doesn't like all this 'gothic make up wearin' shit i'm gettin' into.' lmao. he still hasn't put together that i'm going out with jay. he thinks we're friends. HAHAHAHAA.
but i'm used to my dad hating everything i do. its no big deal.
he also kicked tanner out of the house again. ><

me, jay, vicky, tanner, em, and matt are leaving for paris saturday. after that i'm staying at my grandmother's house with tanner for a week till august 7th. WTF. THATS GOING TO BE SO BORRING. :dies:
anyways. we got two rooms for paris. its going to be one room with me jay and matt and the other will be tanner em and vicky. it was originially supposed to be me, jay, tanner and matt in one room, but the whole thing with tanner and matt it isn't a good idea to put them together right now. so we threw him in with the girls.

i finished my new outfit, if i get my hands on a camera you guys will see it. ;D
yeah im done here. bye now.

10:19pm: so cut my wrists and black my eyes...


plans for my new look. i start sewing tomorrow.
[mind the shitty drawing for now, i did this in about ten minutes and im on a labtop with no mouse ><]

ps. photobucket is being an ass, so i have to use tanner's account he stole from trav. just so you guys don't freak out when you see your username. kthxbye.

9:34pm: SOME GUY GAVE ME COWBOY BOOTS TODAY. they are teh sehks.
i got a job. kind of. i get to help paint stuff. for money.
i'm going to paris sooooon.
i'm bored. X_x

8:30pm: but vertigo is all i know
i can't believe i'm still in school. x___x
when i lived in america we got out in may.

after school i spent the day with jay. the way things have been going with my father he was all i needed. i love how he can change my mood just by holding me in his arms. i love that i can be vulnerable around him.

i'm finnally going to another rave tomorrow ^_^

8:20pm: XD
it's gackt's birthday XD
:licks pillow case with him on it:

x3bixx.

7:52pm: new journal
i'll be using this journal from now on. no real reason for the change, i just like the name better i guess.

jay slept over last night. i can't put into words how much i truly love him. he's the best thing that ever happened to me. i can look in his eyes and know he feels the same, i really hope everyone else gets to feel this way at some point in time. what we have is so strong and pure, it's positively blissful. hours pass by when we're together and i don't even notice it. i hope i can stay like this for the rest of my life.

so. anyways. yeah, me, tanner, jay, and a bunch of other people are heading off to paris in a little while, should be an absolute blast. jay and i will finally get our drink and we'll be keeping tanner far away from it. so don't worry.

i started sewing my jack sparrow costume. johnny depp x3

x3bixx.